GRATITUDE DELAYED 08.23.10
I’ve been remiss lately in updating my blog. I’m trying to do a better job. Tonight, I pause to reflect on my gratitude from last week. I have so very many blessings in my life. I’ve said it before, and I’ll no doubt say it again, the greatest blessings in my life are not “things”. The greatest blessings in my life are people…and the gifts they bring into my life.
As I look back, I’m so grateful for that day a little over two years ago when I summoned up the courage to walk into my first Men’s Chorus rehearsal. So very many of the blessings in my life are related in one way or another to my affiliation with this amazing organization. Three years ago I would have never dreamed of having so many friends in my life, I would have never dreamed that my life would be turned so completely different. When I can walk into an establishment and know a vast majority of the people, that’s a feeling to which I’m still getting accustomed.
I’m so very grateful for my musical abilities. I’m grateful for those who are such an encouragement to me and for the opportunities I have to share my gifts. Living my dream is just an amazing blessing.
Here’s my confession: The last several months of my life have been an amazing experience of trust and faith. I’ve gone from being unemployed to finding what promises to be a good job. I’ve gone from meeting someone I thought I was falling deeply in love with to losing that relationship as quickly as it came into my life. I’ve gone from having some friends in my life who were so very special to me that have fallen away. It’s been an absolute roller coaster ride, but through it all, the good, the bad, and the ugly…I am blessed…and that is one thing I know for absolute certain!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
GRATITUDE 08.15.10
GRATITUDE 08.15.10
I’m a couple of weeks behind in my gratitude update. The last couple of weeks have been pivotal periods in my life. I have started my new job. While it is a long-term temporary position, there is lots of potential there. I have to say that I really didn’t do a lot of worrying during my months without a job, because I knew deep in my soul that everything would work out for the best.
I am grateful for the unique experiences that have come my way in the last few months. This year has been wrought with so many changes, so many transitions and, in turn, so many unexpected blessings. While I find that I am still searching for my place in this world, so many questions have been answered and so many voids have been filled.
I’m grateful for the amazing gift of friendship. Friendships, just like any relationship, are difficult. There are ups and downs, misunderstandings and difficulties. I’m grateful for the friends I have. I still function best in a small group of friends, but when I look at where I was two or three years ago and where I am now, I’m just stunned at how far I’ve come. I have some of the most amazing people in my life. Knowing that there are a few individuals who would drop everything and do whatever I need at a moment’s notice is something that just defies words to me. I feel so unworthy, but so very blessed.
I’m grateful for the way things are falling into place in my life, as though they were divinely ordered. Sometimes I think it takes letting go and just relying on the one who is mightier than I to really see movement in my life. Things are not always the way we want them to be or the way we would choose, but in the end, it seems that everything happens exactly the way it is supposed to.
Here’s my confession: I have no idea what my tomorrows hold, but I know that my present is fully of many amazing gifts and treasures. I am grateful for those who take me exactly as I am and still love me. I have a million faults, but the fact that someone is willing to overlook my flaws means so very much.
Gratitude is such a simple concept. If only the whole world would adopt the attitude of gratitude, what a more peaceful way our world could operate.
I’m a couple of weeks behind in my gratitude update. The last couple of weeks have been pivotal periods in my life. I have started my new job. While it is a long-term temporary position, there is lots of potential there. I have to say that I really didn’t do a lot of worrying during my months without a job, because I knew deep in my soul that everything would work out for the best.
I am grateful for the unique experiences that have come my way in the last few months. This year has been wrought with so many changes, so many transitions and, in turn, so many unexpected blessings. While I find that I am still searching for my place in this world, so many questions have been answered and so many voids have been filled.
I’m grateful for the amazing gift of friendship. Friendships, just like any relationship, are difficult. There are ups and downs, misunderstandings and difficulties. I’m grateful for the friends I have. I still function best in a small group of friends, but when I look at where I was two or three years ago and where I am now, I’m just stunned at how far I’ve come. I have some of the most amazing people in my life. Knowing that there are a few individuals who would drop everything and do whatever I need at a moment’s notice is something that just defies words to me. I feel so unworthy, but so very blessed.
I’m grateful for the way things are falling into place in my life, as though they were divinely ordered. Sometimes I think it takes letting go and just relying on the one who is mightier than I to really see movement in my life. Things are not always the way we want them to be or the way we would choose, but in the end, it seems that everything happens exactly the way it is supposed to.
Here’s my confession: I have no idea what my tomorrows hold, but I know that my present is fully of many amazing gifts and treasures. I am grateful for those who take me exactly as I am and still love me. I have a million faults, but the fact that someone is willing to overlook my flaws means so very much.
Gratitude is such a simple concept. If only the whole world would adopt the attitude of gratitude, what a more peaceful way our world could operate.
Friday, July 30, 2010
GRATITUDE 07.30.10
GRATITUDE 07.30.10
Another week has passed by way too quickly. Yet, as I pause tonight to reflect on the moments that made up the week, I am grateful for each wonderful moment.
I’m grateful for forgiveness and mercy. I’m a work in progress. I do things before I think, I speak before I analyze and somehow it all comes out wrong. I suppose there is an innocence about me that a trust too easily, speaks too honestly and without a filter. This is something that has gotten me in “trouble” far more often than I care to recount. Those who have known me for a long time just this about me and go on. Those who don’t know me so well are often unintentionally hurt by my words and actions. I’m grateful for the forgiveness of a friend against whom I had made an unintentional transgression.
I’m grateful for a few hours I was able to spend with Andrew this week. We went to high school together and have been reconnecting via facebook, but were able to meet in person this week for a few hours just catching up. It was so good to spend time together in person.
I had a wonderful time celebrating Christopher’s birthday and mine earlier this week. As I grow older, the beauty and fragility of friendships become far more apparent to me. Knowing that today I have more friends and acquaintances than I have ever had is a truly humbling experience for me.
Here’s my confession: I am grateful for the lessons I learn each day about life. Each day I live, I believe I grow in some way. I get bogged down with my list of things I want to do each day. I get frustrated with things that just don’t want to go my way, but I know that life is a beautiful adventure, and even on the cruddiest of days, life is good. I’m grateful for the angels who watch over and protect me. I can’t see them, but I KNOW they are there.
I am grateful for you. If you are reading this, you are a truly special part of my life. Sometimes words evade me and actions fail me. But know that in my heart of hearts, that there is a deep place of love for each and very single person who mean so much to me.
Another week has passed by way too quickly. Yet, as I pause tonight to reflect on the moments that made up the week, I am grateful for each wonderful moment.
I’m grateful for forgiveness and mercy. I’m a work in progress. I do things before I think, I speak before I analyze and somehow it all comes out wrong. I suppose there is an innocence about me that a trust too easily, speaks too honestly and without a filter. This is something that has gotten me in “trouble” far more often than I care to recount. Those who have known me for a long time just this about me and go on. Those who don’t know me so well are often unintentionally hurt by my words and actions. I’m grateful for the forgiveness of a friend against whom I had made an unintentional transgression.
I’m grateful for a few hours I was able to spend with Andrew this week. We went to high school together and have been reconnecting via facebook, but were able to meet in person this week for a few hours just catching up. It was so good to spend time together in person.
I had a wonderful time celebrating Christopher’s birthday and mine earlier this week. As I grow older, the beauty and fragility of friendships become far more apparent to me. Knowing that today I have more friends and acquaintances than I have ever had is a truly humbling experience for me.
Here’s my confession: I am grateful for the lessons I learn each day about life. Each day I live, I believe I grow in some way. I get bogged down with my list of things I want to do each day. I get frustrated with things that just don’t want to go my way, but I know that life is a beautiful adventure, and even on the cruddiest of days, life is good. I’m grateful for the angels who watch over and protect me. I can’t see them, but I KNOW they are there.
I am grateful for you. If you are reading this, you are a truly special part of my life. Sometimes words evade me and actions fail me. But know that in my heart of hearts, that there is a deep place of love for each and very single person who mean so much to me.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
GRATITUDE 07.25.10
GRATITUDE 07.25.10
I am a little late writing and posting this week’s gratitude blog. However, even though my blog is a bit behind, my heart is filled with gratitude for the many wonderful blessings I have in my life. I know—that sounds so trite, but it is genuinely how I feel.
I think I’m guilty—even though I try so very hard not to be—of taking things and people in my life for granted. Nothing is a given. People can exit our lives as easily as they come into them. “Things” can be gone in the blink of an eye. Sometimes I need that gentle reminder. Sometimes, I think I hurt those I love the most, either with my words or actions…things I have done or things I have failed to do. Sometimes it is genuinely humbling to realize take a moment to reflect on what matters most in life. I know that it is often only after taking a personal inventory like this that I am able to truly appreciate and express my gratitude in a very real way.
In the past week, I celebrated (and continue to celebrate) my birthday. It seems almost unfathomable that I am really 37 years old. Life flies by. Age really is just a number. Birthdays, generally, are just another day. Yet, I am grateful for the many people who sent me their well wishes for my birthday, those who took an extra moment to reach out with a text message, a facebook message or some other expression of love. I realized this week, as I have so many times, just how blessed I am. I am rich not because of the size of my bank account, but because of the people who have given me the privilege to experience such beautiful friendship.
I am grateful for the journey of the last six months of my life. As I write this today, this marks 6 months since I lost my job. This has been such a mixed blessing. I was telling Lee and Jane today a I really have to honestly say that over the last six months, I have not worried an incredible amount. I always knew that all things were going to work out according to plan. I said at the time I lost my job that the company I worked for may have closed a window, but God would open a door. And, wow! How many doors have been opened for? And how many will open in the next week as I begin a long-term assignment.
Here’s my confession: I’ve realized that life is fragile. Friendships are tender, and that the very best thing one can do is to express gratitude for the blessings we are given. I’m grateful for productivity I’ve experienced over the last week or so. I make a hell of a lot of mistakes in my life. I’m grateful for the lessons I am able to learn from these experiences. I’m grateful for that which is established in my life, and for that which is not, I work to give it as firm a foundation as possible. For all the worst and all the best in my life, I have been richly and truly blessed. Even the worst day in my life, I’m fully aware that there are people who would gladly trade places with me because there are circumstances in their lives that are be less than ideal.
I am a little late writing and posting this week’s gratitude blog. However, even though my blog is a bit behind, my heart is filled with gratitude for the many wonderful blessings I have in my life. I know—that sounds so trite, but it is genuinely how I feel.
I think I’m guilty—even though I try so very hard not to be—of taking things and people in my life for granted. Nothing is a given. People can exit our lives as easily as they come into them. “Things” can be gone in the blink of an eye. Sometimes I need that gentle reminder. Sometimes, I think I hurt those I love the most, either with my words or actions…things I have done or things I have failed to do. Sometimes it is genuinely humbling to realize take a moment to reflect on what matters most in life. I know that it is often only after taking a personal inventory like this that I am able to truly appreciate and express my gratitude in a very real way.
In the past week, I celebrated (and continue to celebrate) my birthday. It seems almost unfathomable that I am really 37 years old. Life flies by. Age really is just a number. Birthdays, generally, are just another day. Yet, I am grateful for the many people who sent me their well wishes for my birthday, those who took an extra moment to reach out with a text message, a facebook message or some other expression of love. I realized this week, as I have so many times, just how blessed I am. I am rich not because of the size of my bank account, but because of the people who have given me the privilege to experience such beautiful friendship.
I am grateful for the journey of the last six months of my life. As I write this today, this marks 6 months since I lost my job. This has been such a mixed blessing. I was telling Lee and Jane today a I really have to honestly say that over the last six months, I have not worried an incredible amount. I always knew that all things were going to work out according to plan. I said at the time I lost my job that the company I worked for may have closed a window, but God would open a door. And, wow! How many doors have been opened for? And how many will open in the next week as I begin a long-term assignment.
Here’s my confession: I’ve realized that life is fragile. Friendships are tender, and that the very best thing one can do is to express gratitude for the blessings we are given. I’m grateful for productivity I’ve experienced over the last week or so. I make a hell of a lot of mistakes in my life. I’m grateful for the lessons I am able to learn from these experiences. I’m grateful for that which is established in my life, and for that which is not, I work to give it as firm a foundation as possible. For all the worst and all the best in my life, I have been richly and truly blessed. Even the worst day in my life, I’m fully aware that there are people who would gladly trade places with me because there are circumstances in their lives that are be less than ideal.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
REFLECTIONS (525,600 MINUTES)
REFLECTIONS (525,600 minutes)
Today was my 37th birthday. It was, for the most part, a very low-key day…just a regular day, but at the same time, it was an amazing day having received so many Happy Birthday wishes from my friends on facebook. I had lunch with a friend followed by some awesome yogurt, and then I went for a massage and basically did nothing the rest of the day. How’s that for a good birthday.
Tonight, before I turn in for the evening, I pause to reflect on the year that was. The thing I most like about my birthday is that it gives me a middle-of-the-year “redo” on making new years resolutions. I’ve made some resolutions to myself, which I will mostly keep to myself. I may reveal bits and pieces of these resolutions over the coming weeks through the blog.
My 36th year was a year of change. I made new friends, lost a few friends. I moved out of a dream house and I left a job I’d had for 12 years and had no concrete idea of where I was going next. The amazing thing to me is that I didn’t worry very much. There were enough people out there doing the worrying for me that I didn’t have to. I think it has been truly amazing to sit back and watch the hand of the most Divine work in my life. I made a few mistakes, I made a few bad choices, but I think I also made a lot of good choices, too. There have been battles, victories and defeats galore, but I have endured, I’ve persevered and I have, indeed, survived.
Here’s my confession. I begin my 37th year with a great deal of hope, a clean slate and a pinch of optimism. I know that good things are yet to come. I know that the plans I am ready to set into motion are only going to make me a better person. It’s probably time to let go of some resentments and bitternesses. So, for the next 525, 600 minutes, I pray for peace and wisdom.
Today was my 37th birthday. It was, for the most part, a very low-key day…just a regular day, but at the same time, it was an amazing day having received so many Happy Birthday wishes from my friends on facebook. I had lunch with a friend followed by some awesome yogurt, and then I went for a massage and basically did nothing the rest of the day. How’s that for a good birthday.
Tonight, before I turn in for the evening, I pause to reflect on the year that was. The thing I most like about my birthday is that it gives me a middle-of-the-year “redo” on making new years resolutions. I’ve made some resolutions to myself, which I will mostly keep to myself. I may reveal bits and pieces of these resolutions over the coming weeks through the blog.
My 36th year was a year of change. I made new friends, lost a few friends. I moved out of a dream house and I left a job I’d had for 12 years and had no concrete idea of where I was going next. The amazing thing to me is that I didn’t worry very much. There were enough people out there doing the worrying for me that I didn’t have to. I think it has been truly amazing to sit back and watch the hand of the most Divine work in my life. I made a few mistakes, I made a few bad choices, but I think I also made a lot of good choices, too. There have been battles, victories and defeats galore, but I have endured, I’ve persevered and I have, indeed, survived.
Here’s my confession. I begin my 37th year with a great deal of hope, a clean slate and a pinch of optimism. I know that good things are yet to come. I know that the plans I am ready to set into motion are only going to make me a better person. It’s probably time to let go of some resentments and bitternesses. So, for the next 525, 600 minutes, I pray for peace and wisdom.
Friday, July 16, 2010
GRATITUDE 07.16.10
GRATITUDE 07.16.10
I pause again to reflect on my week. The week has been great in so many ways. I’m grateful for time I was able to spend with friends this week. I’m grateful for moments of introspection and introversion. Actually, I’ve spent a lot of time over the last few months being introverted and introspective.
The last six months of my life have been an exercise in gratitude, adjustment and finding peace. I’ve lost some people along the way, I’ve had my moments—good, bad and indifferent. In retrospect, I’m grateful for the changes in my life, because I know that every single thing that has happened to his point has happened exactly at the time and pace it was supposed to happen. I may be learning lessons from this experience for a long time to come.
As I reflect on the week that is now behind me, I’m grateful for the moments of silence an clarity that have come into my life this week. I’m grateful for the time I’ve been given to clarify who I am and redirect the path I’m traveling. I’m grateful for moments that make up the tapestry of my life. I’m grateful that in the darkest of moments, I didn’t give up, even though if I’m being completely honest, there were times I wanted to. I’m grateful for the opportunity of new beginnings.
Here’s my confession: I’m grateful to be where I am on my journey in life. There have been some very dark moments in my life, especially lately, but overall, I’ve been blessed way beyond measure. The road of life is not always what we would like it to be. It’s often very different than we would have chosen, but I have to wonder how much better off we are when the journey doesn’t go as planned? I’m grateful for the events that have allowed me to take an inventory of my life. I’m grateful for the people who accompany me on this journey, who accept me as I am, who know I am not perfect and that if it can be screwed up, I’m going to do it. I’m also grateful for those with whom I’ve not yet come into contact. My heart is full of love and gratitude.
I pause again to reflect on my week. The week has been great in so many ways. I’m grateful for time I was able to spend with friends this week. I’m grateful for moments of introspection and introversion. Actually, I’ve spent a lot of time over the last few months being introverted and introspective.
The last six months of my life have been an exercise in gratitude, adjustment and finding peace. I’ve lost some people along the way, I’ve had my moments—good, bad and indifferent. In retrospect, I’m grateful for the changes in my life, because I know that every single thing that has happened to his point has happened exactly at the time and pace it was supposed to happen. I may be learning lessons from this experience for a long time to come.
As I reflect on the week that is now behind me, I’m grateful for the moments of silence an clarity that have come into my life this week. I’m grateful for the time I’ve been given to clarify who I am and redirect the path I’m traveling. I’m grateful for moments that make up the tapestry of my life. I’m grateful that in the darkest of moments, I didn’t give up, even though if I’m being completely honest, there were times I wanted to. I’m grateful for the opportunity of new beginnings.
Here’s my confession: I’m grateful to be where I am on my journey in life. There have been some very dark moments in my life, especially lately, but overall, I’ve been blessed way beyond measure. The road of life is not always what we would like it to be. It’s often very different than we would have chosen, but I have to wonder how much better off we are when the journey doesn’t go as planned? I’m grateful for the events that have allowed me to take an inventory of my life. I’m grateful for the people who accompany me on this journey, who accept me as I am, who know I am not perfect and that if it can be screwed up, I’m going to do it. I’m also grateful for those with whom I’ve not yet come into contact. My heart is full of love and gratitude.
Friday, July 9, 2010
GRATITUDE 07.09.10
GRATITIUDE 07.09.10
I haven’t been blogging a lot lately, but that doesn’t mean there hasn’t been a lot on my mind. I’m hoping to begin blogging more in the coming days. My weekly gratitude blog does give me the chance to stop and think about all that I’ve been blessed with in this life.
We are a little more than six months into 2010 and my, what a year it has been. It has been life changing on so very many levels. I lost my job and a boyfriend. I’ve experienced just about every emotion from anger to pure bliss. I’ve gone from days of boredom, to days of really not wanting to go back to work, to working at an amazing temp job that has really changed my life. I am so grateful for this experience—the good and the bad.
This week has held some extraordinary moments. Gospel drag with friends on Sunday night was a true revival of the soul and spirit, BAO Bingo on Monday night was exciting as always! I had a good solid week of work and have had lots of time to just contemplate life.
Here’s my confession: I’m grateful for moments--those gentle, amazing moments of life. I am grateful for friendships. I’m grateful for those moments in my life that are molding me into the person I’ll eventually become. I see the design of the Divine working in my life in so many ways. There have been sacrifices along the way, and will no doubt be many more, but I’m grateful for life as it comes—one day at a time.
I haven’t been blogging a lot lately, but that doesn’t mean there hasn’t been a lot on my mind. I’m hoping to begin blogging more in the coming days. My weekly gratitude blog does give me the chance to stop and think about all that I’ve been blessed with in this life.
We are a little more than six months into 2010 and my, what a year it has been. It has been life changing on so very many levels. I lost my job and a boyfriend. I’ve experienced just about every emotion from anger to pure bliss. I’ve gone from days of boredom, to days of really not wanting to go back to work, to working at an amazing temp job that has really changed my life. I am so grateful for this experience—the good and the bad.
This week has held some extraordinary moments. Gospel drag with friends on Sunday night was a true revival of the soul and spirit, BAO Bingo on Monday night was exciting as always! I had a good solid week of work and have had lots of time to just contemplate life.
Here’s my confession: I’m grateful for moments--those gentle, amazing moments of life. I am grateful for friendships. I’m grateful for those moments in my life that are molding me into the person I’ll eventually become. I see the design of the Divine working in my life in so many ways. There have been sacrifices along the way, and will no doubt be many more, but I’m grateful for life as it comes—one day at a time.
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