GRATITUDE 09.14.12

GRATITUDE 09.14.12 So, I haven’t been nearly as devoted to my blog as I had hoped, but all things in time, I suppose. I’m finding that as I reevaluate my priorities, goals and schedule, I’m being more focused. Hopefully, the blog is the next focus. I like to pause on Friday evenings and contemplate the things for which I am grateful. This week, I am once again most grateful for my friends. Last night I had an opportunity to speak with my dear friend Morgan. Neither of us enjoys talking on the phone, but it was such a great conversation, and it’s so great when there’s someone in your life, even if from a distance, who totally “gets” you. She and I talked about our families and dynamics to which we both totally relate. Today, I was able to share with Lee and Jane via text messages information Morgan had shared with me. These are three people who know me well, and who have been there through most of the biggest events of my life. It’s good to know that there are people who know the details of my life and are able to support me from a completely different vantage point than someone who hasn’t known me as long or who doesn’t understand—or doesn’t want to understand the dynamics and nuances through which I have gone. This week I’m grateful for the simplicity of a quiet evening, for the solace I’ve found through my piano, and for the little bits of growth I go through each and every day. Each day, I’m discovering, is a day or re-creation, a day of discovering new paths to myself, new paths to peace and new paths to joy. I’m finding peace in the most incredible places—within myself—and from the encouragement of people who love me. I’m daily grateful for a job-two jobs actually. I’m grateful for a place to live, and that each day I’m blessed to wake up healthy and, while there are plenty of items on my “want” list. In essence, everything I need I already have. I’m even grateful for the furry creatures who allow me to share a home with them. While I’m not the best cat daddy they could have, I hope they know that I do love them. I know they are growing older, elderly and I know that they may be around for 5 or 6 more years or they may be around 5 or 6 more months. I hope that I show them enough love. As I type this my fat orange cat is lying beside me on the bed. Sometimes I just wish he could speak to me and tell me what’s going on. I’m grateful and blessed. Here’s my confession: It’s easy to take for granted just about everything in our lives. Sometimes it takes losing everything to realize just how very much you have. I pray I never have to endure that. What I do know is that I have some of the most incredible people in my life. I may have mentioned you tonight, or I may not have, but my love for you is deep either way. Each day, I’m becoming a better me. I’m becoming, I hope, a better friend. Each day, I’m reminded of the precious gift of life, the fleeting vapor of life, and I am filled with gratitude to the source who makes all things possible.