ENOUGH!!!

I’ve had enough! Enough of the emotions spinning inside my head, enough of the frustration, fear and restlessness that come with each new day. Enough of the self-defeat, I’ve had enough of the anxiety, guilt and depression. I’ve had enough of the fatigue. It’s been a tough day. To say that I’ve been unmotivated would be a vast understatement. I’m tired of the boredom and knowing that where I am in life right now is now where I want to be.

I’ve had enough of the relationship drama, not only with Parker, but also with my parents, and with co-workers. I have a few very special people in my life—and you know exactly who you are, and I’m grateful for you and your CONSTANT support and encouragement. You, God, and I all know how much I need it. The work it will take to repair these relationships seems daunting.

There are professional goals I am trying diligently to define, but the truth is that I don’t know if I have what it takes within me to go back to school, although that’s what I think I really want to do. Figuring out what I want to do is really frustrating.

Here’s my confession: I’m just rambling tonight. My thoughts are less than cohesive. I’m stressed, I’m a little bit depressed, and mostly I’m tired. I’ve struggled all day with something to write. Certainly this is no where near my best, but I’ve got a bad case of the Mondays. I think it’s time to go to bed, and hope and pray for a better tomorrow. Stay tuned. It’s likely to get better.