CHANGE

Sitting here in the silence tonight, I take a moment to reflect on the last few days. The one common thread that I keep coming up with is change. There are lots of changes continuing to come into my life. The scariest part is not having full understanding of what the changes mean. The biggest change is my interaction with Lane. It’s been strained for the last few days as we struggle to see what the road has in store for us. Are we destined to just be friends or something more? Perhaps only time will tell. And, while it seems like there needs to be a rush to make the decision, the truth of the matter is that there’s no rush. What’s going to happen is going to happen. Time will take care of it all.

I’m also reminded of the things that are constant in my life—my dear group of friends who give me love and support beyond anything I could ever imagine. I’m so thankful for the forces that allowed me to step out of my little comfort zone last August. I have grown so much as a result, and am constantly amazed at the social life I’ve developed.

Here’s my confession: I have absolutely no idea what the future holds. Yet, surprisingly, I have no fear, because I have faith that everything is going to work out and that everything and everyone is going to be just fine. Change is, admittedly, a scary thing, but that doesn’t mean it has to be a negative thing. Change can be very positive even after the result is negative. And so, I leave you tonight with the thought “that which doesn’t kills us makes us stronger.” I believe I’m living proof that it’s true.