A LITTLE DOWN TIME

This is proving to be a strange week for me. I’m finding it difficult to muster up the energy to be motivated to do anything. I’ve been burning the candle at both ends for so long. I feel completely and totally overwhelmed by just about everything around me, although, fortunately, not in a way that is out of control the way it may have been for me a year or so ago.

Maybe it’s because it’s spring break and those around me are not motivated to do anything; maybe it’s because I’m just an introvert who hasn’t had a lot of down time lately. Maybe it’s a combination of everything. What I know for certain is that I relish my down time, being alone, doing my own thing, and not having to be accountable to anyone but me.

I think of the friendships I’ve gained in the last year. I think of how special they are, how they keep me constantly on the go. I think of how I live in a much more remote part of the city than my closest friends. I think of how the economy is having a terrible effect on my bottom line. I think of how I have the greatest of intentions every weekend to just chillax, and how, more often than not, my plans get changed.

Here’s my confession: I’m tired. I’ve overwhelmed. I long for just a few days of nothingness. Just a few days when there are no obligations that must be met, no expectations, no schedule to keep. Those who know me well, know that to say I LOVE organization is putting it mildly. Nothing could be more cleansing to me than an entire weekend of having what my father calls a TSA (Throwing Shit (Stuff) Away) Party. It seems that never happens, but I can still dream. I’m just a little down right now, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I’m holding out hope that one day, in the not too distant future I’m going to get the down time I need to lift my spirit, to recharge my batteries focus my energies on living. Funny, how I might just need a little down time so that I am not so down...