Patience is a virtue, one with which I'm not at all certain I've been blessed. There are so many things going on in my life, so many changes looming. Part of getting to those changes is the growth process. I think I'd like to skip the growth process part and just get on with it. I want everything to happen yesterday or sooner. That's just not how it works. Patience is a most necessary element to change.
Two of the biggest changes I'm facing involve my relationship and continuing education. My biggest struggle is my career path. Going back to school is something I feel very strongly about. But also something that really scares me to death. There are a couple of things I'd like to study, but I'm just not sure which path is right for me. It's partially a financial thing, but I'm learning that I have to just have faith, be patient and trust in myself. Nothing worth doing in life is easy, right?
I've never been extremely patient, especially when it comes to academics. For example, as a piano student, my concept of rhythm suffered because I wasn't patient enough to learn to follow the beat. Fortunately, as I've matured, I have gained a better concept of rhythm because I didn't pressure myself so much. There is a life lesson to learn there. Slow down, be in the moment, be patient. Good things come to those who wait.
Here's my confession: I really have two options. I can either sit here for the next five years, scheming, planning, contemplating about change, or I can get up, develop an action plan, implement it, and have another degree under my belt. In the first scenario, I gain nothing. In the second, I stand to gain the satisfaction of another degree, pride in my hard work, and better opportunities for myself. Either way, I have to be patient, active and dedicated. In the end, I may just surprise myself. Where I am five years from now is largely dependent on my actions. Friends may serve as guideposts along the way, but in the end, the future is all in my hands.
THE ORGAN
THE PIANO
THE CONFESSIONAL
BIOGRAPHY
- r. keller thomas
- Birmingham, AL
- was born and raised in a small East Tennessee town. I graduated from college with a Bachelor of Arts Degree in Music, with voice as my primary instrument. However, the piano has always been my first love. Most of my adult life has been spent a church pianist /keyboardist/ vocalist living in Alabama. Today, I'm in my 40s, on a Journey and currently residing in Nashville, TN. In addition to growing as a vocalist and keyboard musician, I have a fascination with language and grammar.
3 comments:
I believe there was a blog not too long ago where you talked about how you wanted to learn something - algebra I believe - and not just do what you had to do to get by. I remember feeling that way right before I went back to get my chemistry degree - that I wanted to learn, not just memorize what I needed for the next test. Sometimes in the stress of being in school I would still go back into that mode of just spitting out little tidbits of memory hoping to pass a test, but overall, I think I learned a lot more. My point in this monologue is that it sounds like your brain is urging you to learn. While school may seem like a scary endeavor, and yes it may stress you out at times, I think you're so ready for it! Go for it! You can do it!!
What do you have to lose? Nuttin', honey...If you don't think school is the answer once you're in, then don't continue. You won't know anything if you sit at your desk and think about it. Be assertive. Be confident. Be brave-you can do anything you truly desire. If you have passion for it, you'll find a way to persue what you live. Hell, you might even FIND something to do that pays the bills AND you love, too! How cool is that?! I'm envious of those who are paid what they're worth to do their heart's work. They are lucky soulds. They didn't go after a safe thing, they went after what they loved, and didn't settle. GO FOR IT!!
Don't you think that as you have grown and changed in so many areas n the past few years that all parts of you might want to catch up? To continue to reshape your self is an excellent thing. To carry yourself to another level, begin experiencing a new life, to know that you can set a goal and accomplish it (like my new years resolution...hey, wait a second..) Either way... I have wanted to go back to school for a degree as well, although I have so many things that I want to study that I can't choose. The one thing that keeps me held back is that for me to go back to school I would have to be away form my kids at night for at least 2 years. I know that, in the scheme of their life, this is just a small time, but in MY life this is a big chunk missing of them. My rambling point being that I would go if I could- I would get 10 degrees, because that thirst for knowledge remains strong. Go, if you are able, learn! (which in your case may be questionable) (kidding) (no really I am) You can do so many things- why not give them a shot?! (I really was just joking... SHEESH! Get off my back already!)
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