GRATITUDE 5.9.08

This week has been much better for me than the last one was. Quite simply, I'm blessed. I have people in my life who genuinely care about me and the goings on in my life. How could I possibly ask for more?

The previous week was packed with emotions, fears, resentment, and uncertainty. This week, by contrast, was filled with a much greater sense of peace, vision for the future, and clarity. I'm not saying all the fear was gone, nor am I saying that I have a crystal clear picture of my tomorrows. I am extremely grateful for the way in which I was able to deal with the challenges I faced this week.

I started the week with “the talk” with Blake. You know, “the talk” where we decide to “just be friends”. Sure, I had hoped for more, but the truth is, this is the very best decision for us both. In all honesty, I don’t really expect to hear from him ever again. If I do-great. If not, life goes on, right? I’m grateful for the maturity that has allowed me to deal with this situation. Although the relationship hasn’t panned out, I learned so much from the little bit of time we did spend together. I learned that I am not ready for another serious relationship. I learned that I have a lot more of learning about myself to do. I am so grateful for the experiences I’ve had in the last few months.

As I reflect upon the last week, I am grateful for a renewed sense of hope in my life. I am grateful for a peace I feel so deeply that I can’t actually describe. I’m grateful for phone calls and text messages from the people I care most about. I’m grateful for love, friendship and all the many things that are so easily taken for granted in my every day life.

Here’s my confession: I am happy. And I’m so very grateful for this day.