Gratitude Reflections 5.2.08

In a world where there are many people who truly struggle to find things in their lives for which to express gratitude, I am humbled as I look at my life, even in the midst of a difficult week, and find so many blessings and reasons to be grateful.

I am always quick to mention the love and support of my friends. I wouldn’t be here today were it not for the love, support and encouragement of my dear friends. So many people don’t have people in their lives they can count on to keep them grounded, to keep them sane. I’d be extremely remiss to not mention the special people in my life, especially Fritz and Truvy, whom I know I can call at any time of the day and they will be there for me.

As I alluded to earlier, this week has been difficult for me. I’ve been very emotional, dealing with lots of stress, fears, and changes going on in my life, as well as looking forward to things that lie ahead. There have been several episodes of emotional breakdowns this week, which I believe have led to a great cleansing of my soul.

I started the week with a wonderful first date with Blake. I couldn’t have asked for a better date. Unfortunately, his job keeps him extremely busy, so we haven’t been able to spend any time together this week. I suppose, unfortunately, that our relationship is in a state of great question, but I rest comfortably in knowing in my heart of hearts that if it is not meant to be at this time, that if it is truly meant to be that it will happen in the future. I’m extremely grateful for the experience and hope, if nothing else, to have gained a beautiful friend from the experience.

There have been moments of fear in my life this week, moments of resentment, mainly directed at my relationship with my parents. I struggle often with the relationship with my parents (or lack thereof). I’m grateful for the life they have given me, for the opportunities they have enabled in my life, but my heart is saddened that we have had limited, if any, communication for over two years.

Here’s my confession: So, this wasn’t the greatest week of my life, emotionally. Yet, I consider myself so very blessed to have people who care about me. I’m grateful for the person I am becoming each and every day. Though I’ve experienced a great many tears and fears this week, I’m grateful that I have lived through the experience and know that the tomorrows are only going to bring more happiness into my life.