HOW COULD I ASK FOR MORE?

I'm sitting back, looking at the richness of my life and think of all the wonderful people and things in my life, and I'm reminded of a contemporary Christian song written and made popular a number of years ago by Cindy Morgan, where she asks the question..."How Could I Ask For More?" I find myself asking this question today. With all the blessings that have come my way, how could I want for anything more than I already possess? How can I possibly be so selfish as to want anything more?

I have a job. I have a home, I have people who deeply, sincerely, honestly care about me and my well-being. I have dreams that have come true. Still, I want. I want my house to sell. I don't want it to sell tomorrow. I want it to sell yesterday. I want my savings account to be as healthy as it was two years ago. I want to nurture the friendships I already have with the wonderful people in my life. I want to move to a more convenient location so that I am not so far away from my friends. I want to freely accept love from others and freely return that love to them. I want to let go of my hang-ups, to be able to live in the moment. I want to be a leader. I want peace. As silly as it may sound, I even want to be a better dad to my cats.

I want to find the fullness of my faith. I want to know God. I want to embrace each day with joy, and in doing so, know that I am touching the lives of those people in my life. I want to wake up one morning, years and years from now, roll over and look at my partner and know that I've spent my life with the man I was supposed to send it with, that I haven't settled in the least. I want my parents to know that beyond the hurt is forgiveness on both our parts. I want, even crave, simplicity, even amidst the chaos which so often is this thing we call life.

Here's my confession: I know that I'm on the right track. There are going to be those inevitable days where I hit a brick fall and feel like I've reached the end of my growth process. I know that, while I may not fully know it at this moment in my life, that, like Dorothy Gayle from The Wizard of Oz, I already possess within me everything I'll ever need to make my hopes and dreams come to fruition. I just have to remind myself on those days when I feel like I've reached the end of my rope, to tie a knot, dust myself off and keep focused on the prize. Each day I live is a new opportunity to grow, to be the best self I can possibly be. It's easy to sit back and want more, but really, how can I when I know that today, at this moment in history, I have everything I'll ever need? What I really need is to just be patient, let go, and enjoy the ride. How can I ask for more?