HOW FIRM A FOUNDATION?

HOW FIRM A FOUNDATION?

It seems that I am always in a contemplative mood-and perhaps lately more so than usual. I know the metaphor is corny, but I’ve been captivated by the television series “Six Feet Under” in the last few weeks, having purchased the box set of the series for myself as one of the many ways I treated myself for my birthday. As the series begins its second season, the matriarch of the Fisher family finds herself participating in a program in which she creates a new “blueprint” of her life. Her children feel she has lost her mind, as she goes about taking about changing her foundation, the blueprint, the floor plan, etc.. I have to admit the idea is a bit of a challenge to me, to take a look deeper within to understand who and what I am supposed to be.

I have a firm foundation—that being the friends and people in my life-near or far that love me. Some of you reading this blog are miles, states, and ages away, some of you are right here in the same city. Some I have seen recently, for some of you it has been a decade, maybe two or so since I’ve seen you, but for some reason, we are connected through this blog, through facebook or some other social media platform, and for that I am grateful.

My foundation provides support for those day-to-day struggles and celebrates the joys and successes. Yet, I question if the rest of the structure is as sturdy as the foundation. I find many cracks as I go throughout the phases of daily life. There are things over the last four years of growth that I’ve come to love about myself and still other about myself that must be addressed.

Here’s my confession: If you are looking at the house which is “metaphorically” me, just judging from the exterior, you might think, oh, everything is perfectly there and how could I even fathom changing a single thing.

The truth is, inside, I have a lot of changes ahead-I have to figure out a career path, work with reconciling with family and friends. I have to get ready to figure out my career path. I know that I have to fight the good fight, be willing to participate-beyond anything, in repairing the cracks in my own foundation. I’m ready to be the man I am destined to be.