REFLECTIONS OF GRATITUDE

As I pause this week to reflect on the things for which I am grateful, I am mindful that even in a week that was rather blasé to me, there are still far more blessings for which to be grateful than to be disappointed.

I am grateful for moments of solitude, moments in which I am alone with myself, my thoughts, my feelings, my raw emotions. I am grateful for the clarity these moments provide, the peace I am finding in truly delving into who I am at the core. I am grateful for the coming into a greater self-awareness.

I am grateful for those who offer to me their well-intentioned opinions, although perhaps not exactly opinions I am seeking. I am grateful for those who care for me on a deep and personal level. I am thankful for the depth and love that friendships can provide.

I am again grateful for my musical talents and the opportunities I’ve had to share those gifts with others, for the compliments that others give to me, for the edification their words bring to me.

I am grateful for Brandee, my college friend with whom I’ve recently renewed an epistolary relationship. I am grateful for the depth of her soul which she laid out in her epistle to me, and for the cathartic experience we both experienced in our writing. I am also grateful for the deep and enriching experiences she has shared with me, which are not unlike situations through which I myself am going, and will be going in the future. I am also grateful for G who is a constant source of encouragement through my blog and by her very presence in my life. She seems to see something deeper in me, and sees the potential that lies ahead for me.

I am grateful that in spite of my lack of enthusiasm for most of life this week, my fatigue and being generally withdrawn from life, that I have made it to the other side of this week. I am grateful for visions I have for my future, peace that I am gaining along the way to follow my dreams and for those holding my hand as I make the arduous journey.
I am grateful for being at a place in my life where I am finally being honest with myself.

Here’s my confession: This week has been tough. It’s been jam-packed with obligations. I’ve been very tired. Yet, I know that while it would be easy to stop and bitch, that is not beneficial. Pausing and looking at my life with a grateful heart and attitude are for more effective. There’s always someone out there who would give anything to have the life that I have. Whatever difficulties I am encountering along my journey, they certainly pale in comparison to so the situations of so many others. I must be mindful of that.