I have always been somewhat of an introvert. Perhaps it is because, despite my repeated requests and pleas for a sibling, I am an only child. Perhaps it is because I was born under the astrological sign of Cancer. Perhaps it is just a culmination of all my life's experience. Whatever the purpose, in recent months I have gained an even greater appreciation for these moments.
As I have journeyed down the trail of self-improvement and awareness, I have turned even more introspective. Just a few months ago, I could have been classified as co-dependent. I used to spend my evenings chatting online with friends. I always wanted to be around Parker. Now I rarely even turn the messenger program on. I now send Parker to run errands by himself. I've filled my time with learning foreign languages, playing "brainy" games on my Nintendo DS or just lying with a cat or two watching television.
It is in the quietness of being at home alone in which I am finding the most peace these days. That is such a change for me. I’ve never been able to truly relax. I continue to look for ways to improve myself. I’m committed to making more time for solitude as I approach the days ahead and certainly in the New Year.
Here’s my confession: I’ve always enjoyed being alone, because for a large portion of my life, that is all I’ve ever been. Now, learning how to make those rare moments of solitude and quietness in a world that is full of obligations most productive is my goal. I believe it is in the quietness of these moments that I will grow the most.
THE ORGAN
THE PIANO
THE CONFESSIONAL
BIOGRAPHY
- r. keller thomas
- Birmingham, AL
- was born and raised in a small East Tennessee town. I graduated from college with a Bachelor of Arts Degree in Music, with voice as my primary instrument. However, the piano has always been my first love. Most of my adult life has been spent a church pianist /keyboardist/ vocalist living in Alabama. Today, I'm in my 40s, on a Journey and currently residing in Nashville, TN. In addition to growing as a vocalist and keyboard musician, I have a fascination with language and grammar.
4 comments:
I'm going through a period of not even having the radio in the car on while I drive. I've always been on the run, busy, busy, busy....the busier the better, which, I think helps to keep me from listening to my true feelings. I'm trying to keep a quiet place accessible these days. It's good. I'm listening.
Sometimes being able to be alone with yourself without being productive is the biggest growth of all. Be bored with yourself sometimes too. Trust me on this.
Buddy, like anything else in life it's just finding the right balance--the happy medium or Buddha's middle way. I mean, clearly I'VE never been able to do it, but I do keep trying! And too much of anything is bound to be as bad for you as not enough of what you know is good for you. Crap, too much FIBER would probably be bad for ya! (I just love that sentence....I almost wrote: "hell, too much CHURCH would probably be bad for ya", but I was worried that might offend ya, what with you being the Sunday organist and all. No offense meant, bro! Just lookin' for laughter!)
Ok. SO to sum up the wisdom of Gav: Enjoy being around people you love just enough, and then enjoy being alone just enough, too.
peace around~
Gav
What is this "alone" of which you speak? I'm baffled.
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