DELAYED GRATITUDE

Delayed gratitude is better than no gratitude at all, I tell myself as I lie here unable to fall asleep. I could probably fall asleep a lot easier, but my mind is heavy tonight thinking of all the things in my lie that I’m dealing with—ranging from finances to the reinvention of myself. That’s enough to keep anyone awake.

I really hope to get back into writing my gratitude blog on Fridays beginning this week, but for one reason or another, I haven’t been able to get to that task the last couple of weeks.

As I write this it is a little after midnight my time on Monday morning. The weekend is now behind me. A week of obligations, experiences and, no doubt, challenges will be coming my way in a matter of hours when the alarm clock rings. Oh, I’ll hit the snooze button a couple of times to delay the inevitable, but I can’t delay it forever. I’m already tired, and thinking of the fact that a little more than six hours from now the alarm is going to awaken me is, to be honest, not on my top ten list of things that would make me happy, but such is life.

While I pause to reflect over the last week, I’m grateful for the many experiences in my life which allowed me to see just how far I’ve come as a person in the last year. I’m grateful for the decisiveness I’m beginning to experience. There’s a freedom in knowing that I’ve empowered myself to do something. I’m becoming a little more independent each day and have honestly never felt so complete in my entire life. The really exciting part about this whole process is that I believe that I am only at the beginning.

I’m grateful for the affirmations I receive from those who absolutely know me best. I’m grateful for the “protection” my friends provide, for their sound advice and their encouragement to keep on going each and every day.

I’m grateful for the NOW. The Now is the only time I honestly have, and I trying to learn that simple truth. Embracing it has made a world difference for me.

Here’s my confession: I’m a little more than a couple of days late with this blog. I confess that I miss blogging my thoughts on a regular basis. I hope to bring them back very soon. My true confession is that I am grateful for my friends, especially Truvy and Fritz, without whom I don’t know where I’d have been able to get back in the swing of things. I’m grateful for each person who has touched my life.

I’m also very grateful for the beauty for the rain which fell this afternoon. Rainy days are so beautiful. To me, it’s like the watering of my soul.