GRATITUDE 10.24.08

It has been another week, another chapter in the ebb and flow of living that is my life. There have been some truly serendipitous moments in this week, some moments of enlightenment and some emotional highs and lows. Yet, through it all, I’ve been grateful—deeply grateful—for each moment that has passed, has somehow left me as a better person.

I’m grateful for my dear friends, who have been so supportive as my life has taken twists and turns that I didn’t even see coming myself, most obviously my new relationship with Lane.

It’s now been just over three months since my 35th birthday. Prior to my birthday, I was so excited because I had vowed that 35 would be a pivotal year for me, a year of marked change. Today, while having a very personal conversation with a dear friend, and I realized that there have already been so many changes. Joining the Choral Society was the single biggest step I’ve taken to this point. That single gutsy move I took to walk into that first rehearsal has changed my life forever. I’ve developed a network of friends who are like a family to me, and as an added benefit, I am able to make music with these men. I met my wonderful boyfriend through the choir. I’m just amazed, overwhelmed and filled with gratitude when I think of the gifts this group has brought into my life. There are other exciting opportunities looming on the horizon and I’m looking forward to sharing them with you as they happen.

I’m grateful again as I recall the gifts that music has brought into my life. I’m grateful to have found my voice again, to be able to use it and for my skills as both a keyboardist and accompanist are growing.

I’m grateful that I was able to meet many of Lane’s closest friends tonight, and that it was such a comfortable experience for me. I’m grateful for the word “Love” and for the many things it means. It’s often unexpected and surreal.

Here’s my confession: I’ve been walking around through many emotional highs and lows over the last week. I’m starting to come down from a huge emotional high and starting to settle back down into reality. Despite fears and conflicted emotions, I am grateful for the experiences that have come, and are coming my way. I am finding that I’m often at a loss for words these days. Yet, all in all, there’s so much more gratitude in my life and I’m looking forward to the many blessings still to come.