LESSONS IN LOVE

I’ve spent the last few days just thinking about things in life-what I want, where life is headed, where I’ve been. I’ve thought of how far I’ve come in the last couple of years—how I’ve gone from a shy person who didn’t really know a lot of people to a person who is in a position of leadership within the “gay” community here. I’ve gone from being such a co-dependant person to being mostly independent. My life has been in a constant state of change for a while now.

In the last couple of years, I’ve discovered many of my strengths and weaknesses. I’ve had good days and bad days. The greatest thing I’ve found is love. No, not the erotic kind of love, but a love between friends, a love that has come from my family of choice, and perhaps, in ways I’m still learning, love that comes from learning to love myself.

Here’s my confession: I’ve not always loved myself. There are days that I still don’t. But, there are far more days than not that I am filled with gratitude to still be on this earth. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what your friends think of you, it doesn’t matter what your parents think, and it doesn’t even matter what those outside voices tell you. What matters is what you know and believe to be true in your heart of hearts. For love true love comes from within, and that love from God, and love doesn’t get any more pure or real than that.