REGRETS...

REGRETS

Regrets. I suppose, if we are honest, we all have a few. However, it’s really difficult to have a lot of regret because most often the experiences we have, either good or bad, give us richer experiences and help mold us into the people we ultimately become.

I’ve been contemplating my regrets over the last few days. I’ve thought a lot about my relationship earlier this year with Wynn. I thought I was falling in love. I thought I was there. But, it was not to be. Yet, I grew from that experience, and I am fairly certain I’d do it all over again. I’ve though of my relationship with Parker. We spent nearly five years of our lives together. I think of the house we purchased, the memories we shared, and the contact we still have today. I regret the situation with the house. I will probably regret even more when all is said and done. I’ve moved out of the big house, it’s been nearly a year. I wonder sometimes if I’ll ever rebound and be able to buy a home again. I hope I will. I wonder if my true love is still out there somewhere or if, that, too, has eluded me. I wonder if career set-backs will define me, if I’ll ever discover my destiny…if I’ll ever obtain an advanced degree. I wonder, if I’ll ever arrive at me.

Here’s my confession: I try to focus on the positive elements of my life. I try so very hard to focus not on the events of the past, but in this present moment, for that is where life is to be lived. It’s not lived in yesterdays past or tomorrows, which haven’t yet arrived. The NOW, the here and now, are all we have. I have dreams, I have visions, and I’m creating new ones each and every day. I read a quote this evening by Kelsey Grammer. "Apologizes are pointless, regrets come too late. What matters is you can move, on you can grow.” How very true. And I recall the old standard song, “My Way”.. "Regrets, I’ve had a few. but then again, too few to mention.