PEACE THAT PASSES UNDERSTANDING

This week, for some inexplicable reason, I’ve experienced such a sense of peace and tranquility. I’ve smiled a lot, I’ve laughed a lot and I’ve just felt that for the first time, in a very long time, that “it is well with my soul”. It’s been a long and tiring week so far. Eight hours over the course of two nights were spent in a recording session for the MCCS CD. It was an exhausting process, but the camaraderie of my choir brothers and the music were an incredible experience. Yesterday I attended a daily mass at the downtown cathedral, and because of some connections I have there, was able to play around a bit with the pipe organ after mass, and was told I was welcome to come back and play around on the instrument any time. Maybe I’ll actually LEARN to play the organ for real.

Worry, fear and frustration have subsided this week. There’s a joy I can’t even begin to explain. I feel like things are just really good in my life. I feel like I’m on the right path. The picture is still a little fuzzy, but the details will show up in time. I’m not worried.

Here’s my confession: I don’t know. I could wake up tomorrow morning and be worried, anxious and be mad at the world. So, I’m relishing the beauty of this peaceful feeling while it lasts. I’m enjoying living today, and am letting tomorrow worry about itself. For now, there is music in my soul, my spirit is light and my outlook on life is very positive. This is a good feeling. It’s something that I haven’t experienced many times. Maybe this is a new trend? Whatever the case, I thank God for the blessings have fallen into my path, for while I can’t pinpoint the exact reason for this incredible feeling, I am certain it is the people in my life, the experiences I’ve lived, and the hope I’ve been that have contributed so greatly. While I could dwell on plenty of negativity if I wanted, I choose joy and positive thoughts. I’m sure that soon enough there will be a cloudy day that I don’t feel so chipper, but until that day comes, I’ll be here, with peace.