Sometimes I have to just sit back and remind myself to “STOP”. The world keeps on spinning, issues keep on going…but sometimes I have to stop. In a world of chaos, where is the quiet. In a world full of confusion and nose, we just have to say "NO MORE" and STOP.
I have to remind myself to stop before I speak. My jokes may not be taken in the right context, my words may be misinterpreted and, sometimes, that is how sometimes friendships meet their demise.
I have to remind myself to stop dwelling on the past or the future and live in the NOW. Yesterday is gone—learn from the lessons there. Tomorrow has not happened—it isn’t even promised to me. Today—this moment, is all I have. I can’t dwell on relationships that didn’t last. I can’t focus on relationships that haven’t yet happened. I can choose to learn the lessons from those relationships and focus on ways to be better.
I have to stop and remind myself to stop dwelling on the relationship, or lack thereof, with my family of origin. I have to remind myself of my family of choice, and the innumerable blessings they all bring into my life. I have to let go of the blame, the fear, and the guilt. I have to focus on the people who mean the most in my life right now—the people who would drop everything for me.
I have to stop focusing on the career that has ended, and focus on finding my new career. I have to focus on my education. I have to stop the resentment, the frustration with the company to whom I gave 12 years of my life and instead focus on the belief that the best is yet to come.
Here’s my confession: There are a lot of things I need to stop. I need to stop putting things off. I have to stop allowing myself to stop and think before I do things. I have to stop and ask myself if the choices I make today, the things I say today or the things I do today are going to be something I regret tomorrow. I have to stop pining for a man to come into my life to fill the void. I have to fill that void myself, then there will be a place for the man. I have to stop kicking myself for decisions I didn’t make, but should have.
In short, I have to stop. I have to take a deep breath. Savor it. Enjoy it. Embrace the essence of that moment. For in stopping to enjoy that moment—that one, single, solitary moment in time—I may just grasp all the answers to all the questions that haunt me from day to day. I have to stop and acknowledge that while my life has not always gone according to plan, that I am blessed. So, I must enjoy the moments that make up my life. I have to stop and remind myself that I’m never alone—I have friends who love me, and that is more than enough to help me make it through the days. So tonight, as I lay down my head to rest, I will stop, for just a moment and say a prayer for you, my dearest friends, in thanksgiving and gratitude for the special gifts you bring to my life. You each bring some unique gift I need, and I love you. I hope that maybe, after you read this, you’ll stop, if only for a second or two, and say a little prayer for me.
THE ORGAN
THE PIANO
THE CONFESSIONAL
BIOGRAPHY
- r. keller thomas
- Birmingham, AL
- was born and raised in a small East Tennessee town. I graduated from college with a Bachelor of Arts Degree in Music, with voice as my primary instrument. However, the piano has always been my first love. Most of my adult life has been spent a church pianist /keyboardist/ vocalist living in Alabama. Today, I'm in my 40s, on a Journey and currently residing in Nashville, TN. In addition to growing as a vocalist and keyboard musician, I have a fascination with language and grammar.
4 comments:
Thanks, I really needed this today. Lately been dwelling on the events and relationships of the past. Thinking coulda shoulda woulda about things that went wrong, and driving myself into a funk and beating myself up about things of how they could of ended up differently if I should have said this or done that. Just have to keep in mind that God's plan and timing is perfect, even if not on my selfish time table, He knows what is best and is in his hands. Which is comforting to know that it's not in my hands. That's a lot of pressure to be perfect. And I just have to remember that my imperfections can me used as a tool of experiences to help me later on in life and to help others. So thanks for the reminder.
"Tomorrow is always fresh, with no mistakes in it." - Anne of Green Gables
I think the title of this should be pitty because isn't that what you want from everyone?
Thank You. I'm glad to know that my words touched you. Patience, peace and faith--in yourself and your own sense of the divine is the key. Stop beating yourself up and live abundantly! :-)
I have never sought pitty, not in my blog, not in life. I've sought understanding and insight, but never pitty. If I want pitty, I'll throw myself a pitty party with my cats. This particular blog was about taking an inventory of the things in my life that I need to change. My blog is about writing for my own catharsis and, if my experiences can somehow touch the lives of someone else, then I've achieved a double purpose
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